today

Today. Today was a difficult day. Started out difficult. Ended difficult.

In between there were good things. Good people. Laughter.

I wish I knew what else to say. I feel like I have tons of things that should be expressed, but perhaps I don’t know how? Or maybe I’ve become in the habit of not. Or maybe I just don’t want to…

When I know, perhaps there will be something here.

sums up my thoughts today...

to quote kathleen kelly (meg ryan), on you've got mail:


"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, not small, but valuable. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void."

preparing for the week ahead...

Nations fall when You speak
And You have spoken over me
I am tired of giving in so easily
The way You keep on loving me
Is changing everything I see
It's a great big mystery
The fingers on my weathered bow
Are giving out and letting go
I need You now to take me in
I cannot fight alone again
Can't fight alone again

(great big mystery, bethany dillon)



sometimes i'm not as strong as i seem to be. overwhelmed. scared. insecure. these are words that can at times be used to describe how i feel. just needed to share that.

God, however, is never these things, and He has saved me from them, and myself.